The Vital Tapestry
“After I nearly died my whole life flashed in front of me and then the image settled into an enormous tableau, like a tapestry I could step through.
“Time became space and every moment of my life was there in crystal clarity – from my birth to my final moments, spread out in all directions around me.
“Yet somehow I could also behold it all at the same time, in the same place. It was then I noticed the holes – frightening spaces in the picture, empty even of shadow. Utter nothingness.
“I knew in that moment our tapestries are meant to be entire, to be complete. These were the holes when I was not present in my own waking life. These were little voids claimed by other influences on my attention. Some of the tears and holes in my life picture were tiny, some were huge. Yet I knew I needed the whole picture to move on properly.
Then I realised it: These were the holes when I was texting, letting the infinite quality of my life be remade into ones and zeros that were never truly born of my being, the gestures I made, without actually caring or being there in my heart and mind. And these were spaces I could never easily fill again.
“The picture unraveled like a tsunami then fractured. Voiceless I screamed, and awoke, sweating in my bed.”
Paul Levy is the Author of Digital Inferno